Lord I'm Ready Now by Plumb

I don't listen to the radio much anymore but I did one evening on a quick run to the store.  As I was scanning the stations, I heard a few lyrics from a song that spoke to me. Sometimes that expression "spoke to me" seems overrated, but I think in certain situations, you can't help but say it.  The lyrics to this song did in fact spoke to me.  It spoke to tell me exactly where I am and where I have been.

Even though I had already arrived and parked in front of the store, I sat there listening to the rest of the words.  The song style was sorta of sappy (and I'm sure this song is being constantly played on Christian stations) but lyrics can tell a different story.  After the song was over, I said out loud, "Yup that's me!" Everything in this song is what I have been battling and struggling with for the last year.  I have been struggling for a couple of years but this last year had to have been one of the most numbing, insipid ones in my life. What was I doing? Where was I going? What was I thinking? And lots of questions of why, why, why?

I have been feeling defeated because I've been choosing to be on my own instead of asking for help so this is what I've come to......to declare that I'm ready now. But the greatest thing.....the Lord is always ready.

I just let go

And I feel exposed

But its so beautiful

Cause this is who I am

I've been such a mess

But now I can't care less

I could bleed to death

          Oh Lord I'm ready now                           You called my name                          I've nothing left to hide

          All the walls are down                          I turned away                                      No reason's left to lie

          Time is running out                             But now I                                                Give me another chance

          And I wanna make this count              Am listening

          I ran away from you                            I was so caught up

          And did what I wanted to                     In who I'm not

          But I don't wanna let you down              Can you please forgive me?

          Oh Lord I'm ready now

          Lord I'm ready now